(this is another previous post to give you more background and to bring you more up to date)
So I previously wrote about my recent run-in with temptation… that evil Bitch!! I know I sorta left things up in the air, but I wasn’t sure how things were going to turn out or what it was going to lead to or just how much trouble I might find myself in… So it’s about time I update you guys on the latest happenings.
I had previously mentioned my Married Man (MM), the new guy I have been chatting emailing and talking to the last few weeks. Well that’s only become more intense. More texting, more emails, more calling. We have shared more and more of what we are about, our pasts, and everything in between. It’s sorta exciting to have a new person to share things with, maybe that’s the part that excites me? We have so much in common and we come from such similar backgrounds and life styles. It makes me very comfortable when talking to him. My boyfriend and I are from two opposite ends of the spectrum as far as how we were raised and what type of family dynamic we had growing up. (MM) and I value the same things as far as family and work and things like that. My relationship with my boyfriend has always been a struggle to say the least due to some of the bad decisions he has made over his life time. I sometimes feel like a parent/child relationship. My boyfriend, Chunk grew up with a shitty family, his mother was an addict, didn’t care for her children and so he was raised by his grandparents for the most part and on his own at 15. He’s done drugs the majority of his life and along with that made stupid decisions along the way. So there are a lot of things he has to deal with these days due to those stupid decisions. Like probation, tickets, fees, and all that goes along with that. I find that many times I am resentful due to him having a hard time finding a descent job, what jobs he can find are not well-paying ones and I am usually stuck picking up the slack, paying his fines, fees and such that must be paid monthly to keep him from going back to jail. Why do I stay??? I do love him deep down. He does have a good heart and for the most part he is a very loving man. He however, does lack responsibilities and maturity at times. So it just causes me more stress. With (MM), he has his shit together, has great work history, no troubles with the law, has responsibilities and I feel as though things with him would not be so difficult if we were to strike up something. I feel like I would not have to be so in control of everything, like I could let go of the reigns and relax a little, because I would be with someone who could be trusted to take care of some of the responsibilities. I don’t know if that’s part of the reason that attracts me to (MM) so much?? Maybe it’s just that he’s new to me, he’s charming and sweet and says all the right things. However, in the back of my mind I think… Chunk already knows all the good, bad and the ugly about me and still worships the ground I walk on… that’s a good feeling. If I was to make a play for (MM), I would have to start all over. I’m not sure that I want to start all over and have someone learn all my quirks, my habits, and such and it’s not a sure deal. It’s not a guarantee that we will be compatible in person – remember we haven’t met in person yet. So I’m just not sure about it all. I discussed it all with my sister while she was here this weekend and she asked what I would do if I went for (MM) and things didn’t work out. I told her that just might be the chance I have to take. SOOOO everything is still up in the air.
Well I had mentioned Chunk, my boyfriend, had been acting sorta strange lately and I wasn’t sure what was up with that… well get this… the other night we were sitting watching some TV and I was on the computer not really paying attention, just listening. He’s been asking what I wanted for Christmas and my bday lately and I haven’t told him yet. I’m not sure. I usually buy whatever I want when I want it, so when holidays roll around it’s hard to decide what else I want. Well a jewelry commercial came on and out of nowhere he said, is that what you want? I look up and see jewelry, i said what? diamonds? of course, you can’t go wrong there. He said no, the other. I said what? He said to get married. The guy on the commercial was proposing to his woman. I almost choked. I said where did that come from? He said that it’s been on his mind a lot lately, I ask what has. He said he wondered if we had waited long enough, how long should you wait, did we need to wait longer, should he say something, should he just come out and ask, should he bring it up and talk about it…. just a lot of things he said. When he stopped, I just took a big drink of water cause I had no clue what to say. I said well that came outta the blue and then I said interesting and said I gotta go to the bathroom. I know, what a way to leave the conversation I was sure I had made it clear in the past on a few occasions that I was not wanting to get married. Guess he figures I might have changed my mind. Well I know for sure that I will NOT marry Chunk while he is still on probation. I don’t want to have to deal with all of that, which I already am dealing with now. But at any moment any screw up and he could easily go away for a long time. I have to admit I have even thought about – well if he went to jail then I would be off the hook without having to break his heart. I know, that’s horrible to say it… so I typed it instead !!
I used to be so bad about not wanting a guy to call me his girlfriend or them my boyfriend. I would tell them – labels only cause problems… my real reason behind it was so that there was NOTHING official and if I found something or someone else that seemed more entertaining, TECHNICALLY I wasn’t cheating because we were not officially boyfriend and girlfriend… I know… shame on me !!
So that was a new kink thrown into the mix….
I had also mentioned The Traveler in my previous post, the guy I dated many years ago. The one who looked me up after over 8 years to profess his love for me and the mistake he made of letting me go. To let me know how he would like to correct that mistake if at all possible. He travels a lot for his job, so that helps right now him not being close enough to do me danger right now. He messaged me the other day and was upset about a comment made on FB about Chunk bringing marriage up. I didn’t say anywhere on FB that I had said yes. I said that it was out of the blue and I thought Chunk was just fishing for information. So Traveler was upset and was asking if I was planning on marrying Chunk. I did have to bring him back to reality in our latest text session here’s how it went:
TT: Greetings from frozen Canada
ME: Hi
TT: Are you naked?? I wanna see…
ME: I’m still at work
TT: So that’s a no huh..
ME: LOL
TT: What time do you get off tonight?
ME: I’m leaving in a few minutes
TT: So naked by 530…. COOL
ME: It’s nearly 6 now.
TT: Sorry on mountain time here.
ME: It’s okay
TT: So you will be naked for me by 6:30, 7 somewhere in there?
ME: No, I’m not getting naked till bed time.
TT: That’s a yes. Your bedtime needs to be 7 tonight.
ME: LOL I don’t think so.
TT: You’re getting the theme here right? I WANNA SEE YOU NAKED !!!
ME: I somehow figured that one out.
TT: I wanna see you now !
ME: Well then you better come home.
TT: I can’t wait till then.
ME: NO, Maybe when you come home. You have waited 8 years I think you can wait a few more weeks.
TT: What do you mean NO ?
ME: NO, NOPE, Opposite of Yes… LOL
TT: I definitely don’t like the word No now. 8 years was 8 years to long.
ME: I think you will be fine waiting a little longer.
TT: You’re a comedian.
ME: You ran off and got married.
TT: Yes, and I made a mistake.
ME: It’s okay. But now if you want me, You have to come and get me.
TT: I leave Canada tomorrow…what do I get when I come back home, you under me or on top… YOUR choice.
ME: LOL !! You’re pretty sure of yourself huh???
TT: You’re not??
ME: Have you really through this out? Are you really planning on leaving her?
TT: What are you expecting?
ME: I don’t expect anything because you’re the one that’s married now. There is nothing I can do about that fact.
TT: Not at all – YOU have a big say in this.
ME: I mean really have you really thought about this? Are you gonna give up your new house, your land? I’m not moving there. So are you planning on moving back here? You’re the one that would have to make a lot of changes and I don’t know that you have really thought this through.
TT: You know I have been looking for you for years. I told you that. My marriage has been over for years as well. I don’t care about the house and land, she can have it, if it means I need to move back to be with you I will do that. I just want you to gimme another chance, I won’t make the same mistake again. I won’t let you go this time.
ME: I don’t want to be the reason you finally divorce and I can’t promise that there will be a future with us. A long time has gone by and people change.
TT: I just want you to see me, gimme that. I need to see you. I need to hold you again. I have missed you more than you know.
ME: I’m just not used to you being so vocal with your feelings. It’s a little scary to me.
TT: Well that doesn’t really answer my question, but I want to see you, I really do.
ME: I’m blown away by you telling me how you feel. I would like to see you again.
TT: Do you plan on marrying him?
ME: I do not plan on marring him or anyone else anytime soon. I especially will not marry him while he is still on probation.
TT: Well I hope you don’t. I hope you wait and give me a chance to show you I have changed and show you how much I love you.
ME: Well lets just take things one day at a time and see what happens.
THERE YOU GO – Do you see the nonsense I am dealing with as of late??? The kicker here and the reason I haven’t just told TT to go take a flying leap…. we used to have some of the greatest sex. Some of the best I’ve had. He would definitely be up there in my top list. I really did care about him back then, however I never came out and told him so. He had a hard exterior and was not going to be open up and let a woman get in close enough to hurt him, so he kept me at arms distance and never expressed his feelings so I in turn didn’t either. But we did have some great sex along the way. He has done some of my most favorite things…
I remember on time we were having sex and as he had me bent over his bed and was going to town pumping in and out of me as he was slapping my ass, we were both so turned on. We had been going at it for a while and had worked up a sweat. It was getting really hot in there, our bodies where sweaty and TT reached over and grabbed a bottle of water from the stand next to the bed. It was room temp but as he slowly began to pour it on my ass it sent chills through my body while setting it on fire even more. The water ran down my back getting my hair wet and running off over my shoulders. It made my pussy twitch with excitement. He asked if I wanted more and oh boy did I… so he poured more onto my ass and this time it ran down my ass and across my pussy as he continued to pump harder and faster into me. It was so intense. So hot, exciting and turned me on so much. I exploded almost immediately. Somehow I managed to have a bottle of water near the bed most nights before we went to bed – just in case it got a little hot Damn, I’m all turned on right now just thinking about it. TT has an awesome cock and he was always more than ready to please me with it as much as I could handle.
I was never a huge fan of anal, but it can definitely be pleasurable when done correctly and when your partner knows what he is doing and takes his time. There was a time we were in the living room and I don’t remember what got us so worked up but as I was standing behind his couch he came up behind me and pinned me between him and the couch. I could feel his rock hard cock pressed against my ass as he begins to undress me. He began to tease me by rubbing his cock up and down my ass, this is always a big turn on to me. TT tells me to spread my legs slightly which i eagerly do. He reaches down to tease at my clit and get my juices flowing. He licks his finger and then returns to circle my clit before sliding in and out a couple of times. He licks and kisses on my neck which is always a weakness of mines and gets me worked up in no time at all. He pushes me over the back of the couch as he begins to rub the head of his cock up and down my pussy dipping the head into my juices and then trail my juices to my ass. He then tells me he is going to ease himself into my ass. He tells me to remain still and relax. The pain of his cock spreading me open hurts, but I don’t stop him. I do my best to relax as much as possible. Take a few deep breaths. He then stops as he gets the head just inside. He now tells me that he wants me to take control. He wants me to back up against his cock at my own pace. He wants me to fuck him with my ass. I slowly begin to back up against him, the pain soon turns to pleasure. He reaches down to massage my clit which has my juices flowing. This causes me to slide up and down along his hard cock. The pleasure was insane. My legs begin to tremble as my juices are pouring down my legs. He’s gripping my hips and holding me against the couch so I don’t lose my balance. I am loving the feeling of him filling my ass with his cock. I finally tell him to fuck me… I think just hearing that causes him to explode which he does inside my ass. It was so hot, such a turn on. I am so fucking turned on right now. I’m gonna have to cut this post short and go take matters into my own hands. Chunk is already asleep so I think I prefer to do it myself tonight
I will fill you in on the rest of the story soon.
Hope you all have a Sinful Sunday!!! (it was obviously a Sunday when I wrote this)
~THE FLIRT~